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Things I have come to realize/have decided this weekend:

1) Life sucks sometimes so just cry and get it out and get over it...it'll get better...
2) Alcohol and me are no longer friends and are probably not gonna mix anymore
3) I have such good friends...like really they are amazing and I am being stupid by being upset about a boy..I dont need him when I have these amazing ppl who love me
4) I miss going to church..I have like gone all of like 3 times this whole school year and I want to start going again

So those few things I have been thinking of this weekend..

I get go home in 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!

Current Location:
My dorm
Current Mood:
content at the moment content w/ life
Current Music:
The Wizard and I--Wicked
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I have only 4 more weeks of my freshman year in college left...isnt that insane?? I think it is. It seems like it went by so quickly and yet last year seems so far away. High school just seems like it was a million years ago.
My first year of college has been so amazing..I have made so many great memories and friends..it is going to be so hard to be away from it all for 3 months...I dont know what I expected from college but this past year has been nothing I could ever thought. Its really strange..its like I have 2 lives..my evansville life and my memphis life. I knew that would happen but I never imagined that evansville would start to feel more like home. Yes my family is in memphis but all except a couple of my friends are here and my sorority is here...it is gonna be so hard to be away from all of them this summer. I think I have started to learn a lot about myself this year..I know that sounds so corny but its true..I have been taken out of my safe zone of high school and have had to start really thinking about things. It has been great though..and next year is gonan be even better...In the Fall I get to do recruitment and get my little sis!! :) And in the Spring I am going to study abroad!! Yes that is right..I will going to school in England and living in a mansion!! Yeah I know its gonna be amazing esp since my big sis and 4 of my other sisters plus another great friend shaun will be there with me! :) So yay for that! This summer shouldnt be too bad either..I am gonna be working a lot..that kinda sucks..but I am house sitting for 5 weeks, my sister Leslie is gonna live like 5 mins away from me, my good friend Shaun is gonna come visit me :), my sister Chloe might visit me, I get to go to FL, and I turn 19..so it should be good!
Current Location:
workstudy...boo
Current Mood:
hot hot
Current Music:
ppl talking in the office
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you know your week has sucked when you arent even excited about the weekend...
Current Mood:
blah blah
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...so I just learned I cant make coffee...you would think I would be able to..but no..I cannot
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I wish I was going to the beach for spring break! Not really for the reasons most ppl go down there for..partying...but more to like sit on the beach and listen to music..I think that could be one of my most favorite things to do..To just sit or walk on the beach when the sun is going down or at night..there is just something about it...and I think I just need that right now

Instead I will be in memphis..which is not a bad thing..I plan to keep myself really busy and get a lot of stuff done that I have been putting off..and I'll have time to myself to just think and be alone..which is one thing I miss about being at home..being an only child, I could have my alone time anytime I wanted..but here it is obviously different..Now that I think about it, I think this break will be a really good break...

Current Mood:
okay okay
Current Music:
Where is Your Heart--Kelly Clarkson
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Ok so I realized a random fact about myself today..I love to be happy..like really for all those who know pretty well..how often do see me upset? not very much and usually I still try to keep a smile! I also realized I love to make other ppl happy! Like if I say something or do something and it makes someone smile..it just like makes my day!

Oh yay for happy days!

Current Mood:
giddy giddy
Current Music:
Elephant Love Song Medley--Moulin Rouge
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ok so I am in just like the best mood today...I think it is partly because it feels amazing outside today! So life is going pretty awesome for me! I just have to make it through 3 more days of classes then its spring break time for lauren! I am happy for the break from school but I'm kinda unsure about how break is gonna be...1) I'm working which will take up all my day time 2) I have lots of school shit to do 3) like all of my friends will not be on spring break 4) I will be away from everyone here :(...I know it wont be a bad break..hopefully it will be break down free unlike my other trips home this year which Im pretty sure will be the case since there is nothing in my life right now that is making me unhappy!

Ok well off to the waste of my life part of my day--workstudy!

Current Mood:
happy extremely happy with life! :)
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grr I hate valentine's day..I hate that I cant see my best friend when I need her..I hate that when I go home for spring break no one else will be there so what is the fucking point..I hate that I am missing home even if it is a little..I hate school and homework..I hate that I am so behind in school cuz I am a lazy ass and dont do my work..I hate today is only tuesday and my mom isnt coming till friday..I hate that life is actually going ok and I'm still complaining...
Current Mood:
indescribable i dont even know...
Current Music:
my typing
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but I'm not..Ive been watching the OC..my fav tv show lol..It was my fav episode of the year..not...the Valentine's Day one...it was all ahh everyone is in love blah blah..lol..im so bitter sometimes..its not that i really hate valentines day is just that except for 1 I have never had a valentine and well it obviously sucks...I wouldnt even be that hard to please..all I would want to do is get my fav flowers which are gerber daisies and spend time with that special someone...ahh whatever I'll probably just sleep the day away so I dont have to think about it..unless I find something else to do...who knows...

Now the time of the night Ive been dreading

Current Music:
TV
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Recent Happenings:
-I feel like crap! I hate being sick..it makes me even lazier than I already am. I just want to sleep and not go anywhere till I feel better! I'm also really irritable when I'm sick so everyone is getting on my nerves and I feel horrible cuz none of them have done anything to deserve it.

-I dropped my phone in the toilet on Sat so I am having to deal with getting a new one...I hate it cuz I feel weird not having a phone with me!

-I have a test tomorrow and a paper due Friday...yeah tomorrow should be an awesome day...

Current Mood:
crappy crappy
Current Music:
Project Runway
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